Excruciating Agony: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It was a overcast Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically start with intense pain around one eye that persists for three hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe agony around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, like many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.
Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing records propose unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.
It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.
In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.
Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.
But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.
The official guidelines need revising to reflect a